I am a 27 years old Training and Leadership Manager in one of the largest and most influencial Telecommunication company in Canada. I have been working there for 5 years and managed to climb up the ladder faster than most of my colleagues, and yet I am not convinced that this is the way to go for me.
Now don't get me wrong, I appreciate all the perks that my position entitles me to such as, working from home, getting a paid cell phone and company's laptop, freebies, travels, great benefits package....But for some reason, I feel trapped, in an uncomfortable endless nightmare...My office consists of a grey cubicle, partially shared with colleagues. I get the chills just thinking about it because I know that if I don't "move my butt" or do something quick, I will be there for a very long and sad time.
I ended up in this company as a result of unforseen events; I arrived to Canada at age 19 not able to speak english (I am French), dealing with family conflicts, leaving the family home after 2 years to start fresh, dropping out of university where I didn't find a program that suited me nor could I afford the tuition fees anyways, then add to that the harsh reality to pay bills, live and learn.
So here I am 5 years later from this chaos, with a much clarified vision of what I "AM", what I "should do" and where I "should go": I am a passionate of Fashion, beauty, esthetic, psychology and writing. I couldn't figure this out any sooner obviously but that's not the point.
With that in mind, I decided to go back into my childhood memories and key moments to find out what kind of "suit" I am wearing then, who is the "Real me" and what is She doing?
One thing is for sure, I wasn't wearing a "Training & Leadership Manager" Suit....more or so, a Fashion Editor - Stylist Suit.
I have been reading Fashion magazines since I could remember learning to how to read, I have always been braiding hair, applying make up and creating unique looks for myself or for my friends, so I want to take that road again and discover what lies in there for me.
There is a long way to go and I accept to be called "crazy and irrational", for questioning my current status, for taking the risk to move ahead and leaving it all behind to meet with The Real me, because after all, there is no point of telling a lie specially if everyone already knows the truth.
If you have been in a similar situation yourself, feel free to communicate with me, I am curious to know how you turned it all around.